Life In Prison

[a photo of me & my very missed brother, Allan]

Well, life in prison isn't exactly bad if u know hOw 2 fend 4 urself.. but dun overdO it lah.. it was when i talked 2 this girl in prison that told me i can't carry on this way.. this girl is only arOund 25 this year.. sentenced to a total of 22yrs.. she will only be out in 2016.. i mean, can anyOne see theirselves in 2016? not me.. anOther ah ma who i saw inside was also sentenced to 20+ yrs.. already 70+ this year.. but spent half her lifetime in there.. she was caught 4 cOoking her own opium @ home.. cool thing 2 do man!! well she's been in there since 1994.. becoz she's old & sick.. she's grumpy.. sO no one wants 2 stay with her to take care of her.. most of her time inside was spent in the cell alone.. i dun wanna grow old tat way man..

Now, after a few weeks out, still abit lost & dun wish 2 open 2 the real wOrld juz as yet.. too soon.. no cOnfidence of myself too.. life outside is much mOre stressful than inside.. inside yOu only have 2 wOrry whether your family is gonna visit you & boredOm.. as 4 outside, you really have 2 learn hOw 2 protect urself & one wrOng decisiOn can make your life go down the drain.. so DUN TRY anything brave if you dunno the concequences well.. I myself am nOt that strong yet.. sO i try 2 stay away when i can.. hOpe the people who are close 2 me understand this phrase i'm going thru..

The food inside sucks man!! Almost everyday is "tao kua & spinach".. if u are lucky, you will taste sand in the vege.. if not u'll be seeing ladybugs or ur friendly worm wriggling around.. i know myself tat this juz the starting & i will definitely say things to motivate myself but i really wanna change.. Really.. but juz unable 2 unlOck tat secOnd prison named, Society..

"People aren't bOrn with Hatred, it was beaten intO them gradually"